What’s in Store for 2019?

I went through a huge bout of depression at the end of last year, which lasted a month or so. I had to go it alone, without outside help and I think that is why it took so long to pass. I am currently teetering on the line of normality and mania, but I am holding strong and I hope as the days and weeks pass, the line gets further and further away.

I know we are two weeks into the New Year, but I still wanted to share my goals. I believe putting them out there helps to push towards them.
This is a random collective of things, but I feel if I can nail down the majority of them, my life quality will significantly increase.

So, without further ado, here are my goals for the year:

Drink More Water: This is something I have already been working on and I have good days and bad days. Sometimes I can easily drink two or more litres of water and other days I almost forget to drink anything. The frequent trips to the bathroom are slightly off-putting, but I hear water is good for you all round, so I will persevere.

Sort Out Sleep Pattern: The getting up part of this is less of a problem than actually falling asleep, although I have had a couple of extreme lay ins. My main problem is getting to sleep. Having a full nights sleep is important in making me feel present. I have tried the sleep whenever you fall and wake at the same time every morning method, but it has fallen on deaf ears as I am always wide come night time, no matter how little sleep I have had. It is a working progress, but I am sure of a positive outcome.

Blog More: I honestly do not know what happened in regards to my keeping up with blogging. It is honestly something I love doing and one day the spark left me and seemed to never come back. I felt like I had nothing to say as my mind was blank and negative. I am not sure that will make sense to anyone, but it is the only way I can describe it. I did plan on coming back on a regular basis after my first post of a year, but there was a debacle with WordPress and myself when I decided I did not want to continue with a premium subscription and let me just say, once you stop being a paying customer, they have no intention of being helpful. I loved WordPress as a platform, it was my safe space and their customer service team really put a damper on what was a wonderful two year experience. I have decided that that is in the past and I will carry on as I intended and so here I am. I still need to figure out what I would like the blog to be called, everything I have thought of so far is not original, so only time will decide my new online persona. Last note on this blog is that there will be a redesign. By that I mean I will be switching the theme and personalising it. I was happy with my current theme, but that was part of the premium package and they reverted me back to a random “free” theme and so I need to spend a couple of hours having a look through the back end and prettying everything up.

Read: I have to be honest, my goal was to read one book per week and end the year on 52 books read. Well, I have already failed this, for reasons explained above. I will not let this get me down though, instead I decided to aim for a more realistic goal and read one book per month, ending the year on at least 12 books read. It is better than nothing and still a worthy goal. With that being said, I am looking for book recommendations. I have taken a liking to decent Thrillers with lots of what I like to describe as Bamboozles. I also love Fantasy and anything that can really get me invested. If you have any suggestions, please let me know. It would help me out a lot.

Write that Damned Book: This elusive book I have been speaking of for so long, it is still happening. The passion I have for it is still there and I would be beyond happy if I could get round to making my idea come to life. I mentioned in my last post that I was going to elaborate on said book and that is still the plan, but that will be a separate post. I have three main ideas for books. One is a full length novel, which is the one that is most important to me to write. The second is a collection of short stories which share a common theme and the third is a collection of poetry. They are all in process at different stages, but I know I need to pick one and work on that primarily, which will be the novel. Writing this will help me in more ways than one and I will touch more on that in its dedicated post. To all who have bought me a Ko.Fi in support of my book, firstly, thank you so much and secondly, I have not touched that money. It always was and always will be for the sole purpose of making this dream a reality. In the long run I will need an editor, a book cover and all of that good stuff and that is what the money is intended for.

There were a couple of other things, but I see this post is already reaching 1000 words. And I thought I could not write any more!

My main goal from me to you is to post more frequently. At this point I have to be realistic, so I am aiming for at least once a week. Once I get back into the swing of things, I know it will be more often than that.

To everyone who is still here, thank you. To anyone who is just joining, welcome. I am truly grateful to have your support, were it not for you, this blog would not still be standing and that means the world to me.

Until next time, I love you all.


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48 thoughts on “What’s in Store for 2019?

  1. Small Island Thinker says:

    Love this! Please don’t force yourself to blog though if you aren’t up to it. I blog when I want to now and that lack of pressure is amazing.
    With regards to sleep, I find that when my sleep begins to suffer I go back to my meditation apps in the evening just to try and clear my head of my own thoughts.
    Be kind to yourself, you’re the most important person in all of this 💕

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    1. SarainLaLaLand says:

      I’ve tried meditation apps, but my mind won’t settle enough to pay attention and believe me, I have tried! I am glad it works for you though. It’s great to hear from you. 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

  2. jenchaos76 says:

    Depression sunk me December and these past weeks. I’m holding on for dear life as it were. Reading is what helps, but I sleep all day and I am awake at night. It’s a bipolar person’s nightmare. I told my Dr. I refuse sleeping pills. They’re terrible.

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  3. Lolsy's Library says:

    The Holiday Season always to bring out the worst in depression, anxiety. Even though I am a big Christmas person, like if I was rich, I would be “Kardashian Christmas” big (haha), but I still get so annoyed. But I also get annoyed at other people’s impatience and generally other people,lol
    If you don’t feel the Blogging jive, don’t force yourself, because you will end up hating it. As for the sleeping thing, that’s something you will have to discover what works for you. We can give you suggestions, but you need to find what works for you. I get anxious if I suddenly wake up in the middle of the night, because that’s when my big anxiety attacks have happened.I have an app that works for me, I really have to LISTEN to it though, I can’t let my mind wander, I have to listen to it. It’s called Atmosphere, but it’s a pretty popular one, you’ve probably already used it.


  4. Charles says:

    If you figure that sleep thing out, let me know. I have had a horrible time getting to sleep for several years now. There isnothing over-the-counter that helps, and I don’t drink, (or would I recommend drinking) I try to keep a routine, but usually, I wind up just laying there staring off into the darkness waiting to get hit by a train.

    I highly recommend water. I think I drink more water than anyone. Something I started years ago for health reasons. The secret, for me, is to keep it ice cold. I toss it in the freezer untiul they get all icey and boy I can just chug it that was. Feels really good going down and it’s totally good for you. They say, for losing weight, to drink an oz. of water a day for every pound, and it’s good for the circulation to stay hydrated.

    A book is a huge undertaking. It takes a lot of discipline and a lot of rewriting. I don’t know if I will ever write & publish a book, but I would be happy to publish a collection of short stories. I think that’s more my speed. That said, I do hope to see you blog more, even though I’m a horrible follower, but I do like you words. I find them comforting and friendly and I always imagine you smiling even if you say you’re not happy.

    This is a good thing & it says a lot about the kind of person you are.



    1. SarainLaLaLand says:

      Hey, thank you for your kind words and advice. I too love a glass of cold water. I try to drink at least 2 litres a day. I don’t know how much that is in ounces.

      I definitely need more discipline and that is all on me. It will happen, I just don’t know how long it will take.

      Thank you for sticking around. I appreciate it.

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  5. sinaston says:

    I know this might be a really sucky tip, but for me it sometimes works better to write when I do it in a regular notepad program (instead of word). This allow me to think only about the text itself and worry about details such as graphics later. It should also not feel like a demand but as a passion to write, If you’re stuck, try writing chunks of text that just gets your idea down and then start modifying them and piecing them together to create something. For me sometimes it works best to just write some parts physically and then type it into the computer, it might sound like a lot of uneccesary work, but if it allows you to write 2 or more pages in a sitting is it really unecessary? Also if you have many ideas then I think just start to write on the one you “see the clearest” and then see where you end up can be a good idea. Maybe it will be part of a short story or maybe the novel, who knows? It will be visible first when the books come out.

    Just some thoughts that might be of some kind of help.

    Best regards,


  6. TJ says:

    I feel ya. Depression is a bitch. Mine comes and goes on a daily basis. Self-love and the work that entails is my saviour. Keep on keeping on. You are not alone. Nobody is. 😊😊😊

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  7. La Sunshine says:

    Hey Sara, wish you all the best with your goals. I have realized that keeping goals and trying to work for it always brings more optimism and energy in your life. May be because you are so passionately involved in something that you actually look forward for each day.

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